Madi Prewett, the name many remember from The Bachelor, is known for sticking to her values. But what fans didn’t know was that behind the pretty smile and reality TV drama, she was fighting a deeply private battle.
On her Stay True podcast, Madi sat down and pulled back the curtain on something most people would rather bury forever. She told listeners how she spent years caught up in porn and masturbation. She shared how that shaped her, shamed her, and eventually pushed her closer to her faith.
When Did Madi’s Struggle Really Start?
Madi didn’t sugarcoat it. She traced it back to middle school. For her, it wasn’t just random curiosity. It was the result of what she watched and listened to. She talked about how music and shows with sexual themes made her wonder about things no one was talking to her about at home.
She was honest about that turning point. A friend showed her a show that was so sexual she felt things she hadn’t felt before. She was only 13. It was all so new and exciting. But it opened a door she didn’t know how to close.
Why Did She Feel So Alone With It?
One thing that stood out in Madi’s story was how alone she felt. She believed only guys dealt with porn and masturbation. That lie stuck with her for years. She hid it. She felt dirty and ashamed.
She said she never talked about it at first. She carried it in secret. And that secrecy gave it more power. She kept living her life on the outside, but inside she felt enslaved to a cycle she couldn’t break.
Did Her Faith Help Or Make It Harder?
For Madi, her faith was always part of her life. But that didn’t make this struggle any easier. She knew sex before marriage was wrong in her beliefs. But she was lost when it came to the “gray stuff.”
She asked herself all the questions young Christians do. Is porn wrong if I’m not having sex? Is masturbation still sin if I’m not with a person? She didn’t get clear answers. And that made her feel more trapped.
Madi says she tried to stop. She prayed. She read her Bible. She promised herself she’d never do it again. But she kept falling back in. Each time, the shame got heavier.
How Did This Secret Shape Her Dating Life?
When she did start dating, the habits followed her. She said she pushed physical boundaries again and again. Her private struggle bled into her relationships. She’d go further than she wanted to. Then she’d feel the same shame again.
It became a loop. The secrecy gave the cycle more power. She thought if people knew, they’d think she was fake. Or worse, dirty.
What Broke The Pattern For Her?
The breakthrough didn’t happen in one big moment. It was step by step. Madi says the biggest shift came when she finally spoke it out loud. First to God. Then to people she trusted.
She called it “bringing it into the light.” When she spoke the words she was so afraid of, something broke inside her. It didn’t magically erase the temptation. But it broke the power the secrecy had over her.
She started telling other believers. They didn’t shame her. They listened. They prayed with her. They asked her how she was doing. For the first time, she wasn’t hiding.
Did She Really Stop Cold Turkey?
Madi is honest about this part too. She didn’t just confess once and never mess up again. The temptation didn’t disappear. But the difference was that now she wasn’t alone.
Every time she struggled, she could talk to people instead of staying in her own head. She built what she called a “Godly community” that held her up. She said they gave her space to be honest and not perfect.
What’s Her Message To Others Like Her?
A lot of people think porn addiction only hits guys. Madi’s story says otherwise. She wanted to show other women they’re not alone. She talked about how shame keeps you stuck. And how secrecy makes it worse.
Her message wasn’t “Look at me, I’m perfect now.” It was more like, “Look at me, I was a mess too. If I can get free, so can you.”
She wanted listeners to know they don’t have to carry it alone. Talk to someone you trust. Pray if that’s part of your life. But don’t stay silent.
Why Did She Choose To Share Now?
Madi didn’t have to talk about this. She could have kept her image clean and stuck to safe topics. But she chose to be real. She said this battle shaped her story more than fans ever saw on TV.
She says ten years free doesn’t mean she never feels temptation. It means she knows how to handle it now. Her goal is to help other people find freedom too.
Madi’s words remind people that even the people who look put together have hidden battles. And sometimes freedom comes when you stop trying to look perfect.